Breaking the Wall

It's been a long time since I last felt that genuine happiness. I miss those priceless moments of laughter and good company. I miss those carefree days, those days I didn't care what would happen for tomorrow.

These times have been too tough and too unbearable for a weakling like me. And what's worse, I can't share it to anyone. It feels like I built a wall between my emotions and the people around me. I'm afraid people will just tell me, "It's alright, it will all end", or "Be strong, everything will be fine". Man, I've heard those for 15 million times, I'm allergic already. I'm afraid people will just listen to me and hug me because they pity me. They can say that they understand me and feel me but fyeah, no one can really understand.

Don't look at me like that. Don't look at me with that bitch-why-don't-you-tell-me face. I tried opening up several times already. I tried speaking one-on-one with best friends and with my most trusted people but no one ever made me realize that everything will be fine. And I think no one can really make me feel better.

No words can ever describe this feeling and that's the painful reality. Sometimes I just breakdown, cry, and get grumpy for no specific reason. And when somebody asks me, "What's wrong?" I cannot answer 'cos I cannot put these emotions into words just like how I make no sense right now. I already prayed too much (and gave up) and prayed too much again. I was looking for specific answers to my questions. I needed someone to tell me straight to my face what's really wrong and tell me WHEN all of these will end. I was trying to look for someone or something to blame for making me feel this way. But for all those times I did, I ended up being hurt, 'cos I know it's just me and I can't put the blame on somebody else.

I wish it's just this easy

-JJM

How to Make a Woman Happy (?)

I accidentally found this on Facebook and I just want to share few thoughts about it. :) Note: I'm crossing out some things I think don't have to be there exactly. :) 

HOW TO MAKE A WOMAN HAPPY

It's really not difficult. To make a woman happy, a man only needs to be:

All I know is that I was so happy at that moment.

1. a friend
2. a companion
3. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a plumber
10. a mechanic
11. a carpenter  HEY! Girls can do those too!! 
12. a pest exterminator 
13. a good listener
14. sympathetic
15. warm
16. attentive
17. intelligent
18. funny
19. creative
20. strong
21. understanding
22. tolerant
23. ambitious
24. courageous
25. determined
26. dependable
27. passionate

WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:

1. give her compliments regularly
2. Go shopping with her we have girlfriends, you know! But a little shopping time w/ you may do. 
3. be honest
4. be very rich NAH! Kain bubog!
5. not stress her out
6. not look at other girls

AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:

1. give her lots of attention
2. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
3. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes. We actually like you worrying about us.

BUT MOST OF ALL IT IS VERY IMPORTANT to never forget
*birthdays
*anniversaries
*arrangements she makes

It's not that hard, guys. IT'S NOT THAT HARD. :))

Maybe these tell us that girls are really hard to love and to handle. I beg to disagree. If you really love a girl, these things come naturally. If you love a girl, it doesn't really take too much effort to give her lots of time and to appreciate her beauty once in a while. Same goes to loving our gentlemen out there. A person who loves truly doesn't need tips or a guideline to show it the right way. I believe, everyone has his/ her own special way of expressing his/ her feelings. :)