Keeping a Lost Soul

I always envy those who grew up calling friends as "friends since birth". I know people who were together for over twenty years or for as long as they can remember and I envy them a lot. I grew up going places. Moving from one place to another, transferring from a school to a new one, meeting new friends and then bidding goodbye.. that has been my thing. I've never been familiar to a place or even a face.

I was longing for a sibling, an older brother or a younger sister to be particular. I wished I had someone to play bahay-bahayan with or someone who could hold the other doll for me. I remember those times I play Chinese garter with chairs or those times I play multiple roles, I'm the customer, the cashier, and the manager all at the same time. I wished there's someone I can argue with, someone I can cry with or just someone...someone to grow up with. After 20 years, I thought it's now impossible but through some twist of fate, it did happen.

I don't know if I can consider this 16-year old as my sister. I honestly want it to be that way. But yeah, things are too complicated to put things like that. It seems like we're keeping a lost soul. She's someone who tried to escape from the harsh realities of life and we became her refuge. She's broken and as much as we can, we're trying to fix her.

She became an eye-opener for me. Whenever I look at her, I see my younger self. I cannot imagine how strong this girl is! If I had the same drastic experiences, I could just die, right then and there. Knowing what she had gone through, I learned to appreciate my life and my very kind parents more. "Hey, Jhei! You are damn lucky!".

I choose to share that luck.

It feels good when she calls our home as her own too. We admit that we are starting to love her as part of our family and just by knowing that she enjoys the little happiness our family can share, we feel like we've received a lifetime reward. I'm looking forward to singing and dancing or watching good movies with her or maybe we can travel together. I hope we can share more experiences together, as a family.

The sad reality is, I know changes can happen with just a blink of an eye. She can choose to leave and find her soul in another place. She has a life behind her and I know we cannot take that away from her. But I don't want this dream turned reality to end too soon. I'm so tired of saying goodbye to people I learned to treasure and I don't want her to be just like any other playmate I had. If that time comes when she chooses to be with her own family again, I would accept it. But I'll always remember that once in my life a girl played as my sister and I will forever be thankful for that. :)

Versus.

You know you are bored when you start doing weird and senseless things. :))

One afternoon, while playing with my web cam, nakaisip ako ng BRIGHT IDEA! Ting! I then started snapping my weird facial expressions to put them together like this:

So much for the messy hair. I DON'T CARE!

HAHAHA. :))) I can't help but laugh when I see this. =))) I was thinking of doing this with Spongebob and Squidward but...uuhmmm... too lazy to "stalk" that sponge in his squarepants! Next time! 

I think there's nothing wrong with having some ME time and go crazy alone once in a while. After all, it's Monday (again) tomorrow and I still have pending tasks to accomplish and deadlines to meet. . Curse you, monsoon! Mas mataas na sakin yung trabaho ko dahil sayo. Oh well, I can do this! Kristen Stewart's epic face says so. 

The rain without a name

This rain is unstoppable!  

Mala- Waterworld na yung peg ng NCR. :( And according to PAGASA, it will be raining until tomorrow. Nooooooo! :( I'm not sure what will happen to Luzon in the next 24 hours if this rain would not stop now! 

Our place's condition earlier this day and it got worse! :(

Areas around the metro are still flooded and flash floods and land slides took place already. 

*photos are not mine

Subdivision along Araneta Ave. Quezon City 

19.8m water level in Marikina River

Rescue operations in Las Piñas City

It's getting dark and there are still families that need to be rescued. Nakakaloka! I'm hoping 

that this rain would stop and flood will subside soon! 

This is really alarming. Hindi naman ito nagaganap before. What is happening?!? Tsssk. Anyway, it's not the right time rant about these things. What Filipinos need right now is help from their countrymen. If you want to extend help to the victims of this calamity, check this link [https://www.facebook.com/notes/office-of-the-student-regent-university-of-the-philippines/up-systemwide-relief-operations/456642361037389] so you can contact these organizations from the University of the Philippines. Mga Iskolars ng Bayan in serving the people, indeed! 

It's nice to know that in times like this, we become selfless by  helping others. Let's just continue bringing love to our countrymen and forget any differences in all aspects. I WISH. 

And to you harsh rain without a name.... STOP NOW. Matunaw ka na and leave Philippines alone, keri?!